the enchanter's side notes, leftovers of mind, and the rest.
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stradgirl's leftovers of mind, thoughts, and maybe... something of you
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Tuesday, November 27, 2001
And as I write that last line, he messages me, after a week and a half of silence.. it's funny how today had to be it for the both of us..?
What coincidences - Brad messaged me just now, as well.
12:31 PM | I GOTTA talk to you about
this!
I'm having it.
I had had a generally happy but tiring day so far, and on the way home, walking on the same street as he and I did, I had a strange feeling, of emancipating and permanent detachment. It reminded me of... the first time I rode my bicycle alone. All the apprehension and anxiety disappeared the moment dad let go of the back of the bicycle, and as I flew into the running wind against my face.
I felt so peaceful, having this feeling, and also "feeling" something else, physically -- so I'm having my period.
It is laughable how anxious and afraid I was, but maybe it was my last bit of desire not to let go of the past, thinking of this as the final -- official sign of our separation. Maybe -- I might even have been wishing for it to come true to some degree, as much as such a day dream it sounds like. So, it is over, memories will be memories, and I happily part with them.
12:29 PM | I GOTTA talk to you about
this!
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